There was this girl who had fibro. We'll refer to her from here on out, as FG ...short for Fibro Girl. She also had COPD and some other ailments. FG had caught a bad cold last week and as we all know, when a person has fibro, everything is worse. She drug her butt around sniffling and sneezing, and blowing her sore red nose. Gasping for breath through a completely plugged nose she'd think "Boy, if only I could get over this cold". Monday, she stopped sneezing and her head felt normal again but now her lungs were clogged. She'd cough and wheeze and curse her crappy health.
FG started to feel depressed. Depression is a common co-condition of fibro, and FG deals with it from time to time. FG would sit around with tears welling up in her eyes. She felt sad, and lonely, and depressed. She wondered why she has to live day to day in pain. She wondered why she only has a few friends that she can ever get together with. She thought about how crappy of a person her ex-husband is, for leaving her just because of her health conditions. FG even wondered if she'd now be alone for the rest of her life. FG's latest idiotic saying lately has been "I couldn't even buy a date to McDonald's. Some dude would take my money then through me out of the car before he turned into the parking lot".
Being nice, the boyfriend of FG's daughter told her last night not to make plans for supper tonight because he was going to take her out to eat at a buffet, with him and FG's daughter. Today came and FG was so tired and fatigued, that she wasn't sure she could go out to eat. Thinking it may do her more good than harm though, FG forced herself to go.
FG was still in a funk. It was so bitter cold. Her muscles and joints started aching as soon as she walked out the door. She was determined though, to enjoy herself for once.
Shortly after arriving at the restaurant, FG was sitting there eating. Her daughter and the boyfriend started whispering and giggling. FG asked them "what's going on?". FG's daughter said "just a minute" then pulled out her cell phone and sent FG a text. It said "That creepy old man sitting diagonal from us won't quit staring at you mom, and he keeps smiling". FG tried to be extremely casual about it, but looked over her shoulder to see a gentleman dining alone, openly staring at her. FG just kind of shrugged it off.
A bit later, FG got up to go get some more food. She could feel eyes burning into her back all the way to the buffet tables. Walking back to the table, Creepy Older Man was staring at her, looking her up & down, and smiling at her. FG kept looking straight ahead, and found her seat.
Now, FG has always had a kind heart for the elderly. Always smiles and nods, or stops and talks, when she comes upon the elderly. This gentleman though, was not that elderly. He probably had a good 15 years on FG, but FG is over the hillonly 43 years old. So in the eyes of FG's 18.5 yr old daughter, he was an old man. In FG's eyes, he was just an older man.
FG was trying to eat, but she could feel eyes buring into her with every bite she took. She couldn't help obviously non-chalantly glancing to see if her ever over-active imagination was taking over, or if her every move was being watched. For once, she wasn't completely delusional. Creepy Older Guy really was staring at her constantly. By constantly, I mean only looking away to get food on his fork, then staring as he forked it into his mouth. He'd smile the creepiest smile as he stared at her. It became unnerving.
By this point, FG was feeling self-conscious with every bite she took, herself! FG saw Creepy Older Guy finally stand up and grab his coat, out of the corner of her eye. She froze, half-scared that on his way old Creepy Older Guy would stop at the table and say something. An audible sigh of relief was heard coming from FG's lips, as the gentleman passed the table without stopping.
The entire ride home, FG's daughter made little jokes about Creepy Older Man liking FG. Once home, FG thought about the whole situation, and cracked up laughing! Although some would think the non-stop, hyena-sounding laugh meant that FG had finally cracked and lost her sanity, FG knew it was a good sign. Her bought of depression had finally some-what disapated. She also had learned a valuable lesson when it came to complaining about being single and not being able to "buy a date to McDonald's". She learned to be careful what you wish for ...because there will always be a Creepy Older Man Prince Charming out there somewhere, that you'll run across sometime in your life.
FG is in physical pain tonight. The bitter cold makes her old bones ache and her muscles have sharp, shooting pains in them. Still, she's thankful that she forced herself out of the house. This has been good for her mind and soul.
I'm excited about winning my 2nd auction on the game site! Remember my first win was the Keurig! This time I won a Garmin Forerunner 110 Sports Watch! This watch sells for around $230. My oldest son's birthday is next month and he's a runner, so this is his present! Nice present for me not spending a dime! It came in today's mail so here's a pic of it! If you'd like to sign up for free to get free merchandise too, go here: GAME SITE
I've had one of the most awful pain days today, but a bright spot was when my son came home from the post office with the mail. Look what came today!
Yep, my new Keurig that I got for free from the game site! One of the K-Cups that was in the sampler box that came with it is Celestial Seasons Sleepy Time Tea. I've heard of it before, but I've never tried it. Tonight, I'm going to!
This being a horrible ...and I mean horrible, pain day, I've spent a lot of time on the game site. It gives me something to do when I'm house-bound ...which is most of the time anymore. My pain and fatigue levels just keep getting worse. It also helps to take my mind off of the pain, rather than sitting dwelling on it.
There are three different prizes on auction right now that I'd like to win this time around, for gifts for my oldest daughter, youngest daughter, and oldest son. If I win them, they'll be birthday presents this year for them. Then, to start collecting rewards to use as Christmas presents! Even though I like the auctions, remember that you can also use your points for "buy it now" items and not have to mess with auctions.
Where my husband left me almost two years ago and I'm unable to work, this site with the awesome rewards they have, is helping me out tremendously! I felt like such a low-life failure this past Christmas with the measly gifts I had for my family. This year, I'll be able to give them presents that I'm actually proud of!
I received some flack on The Fibro Frog's facebook page from one person about posting a link to the game site on a fibro page. Like I told her, anything I can do to help someone with chronic pain, I will do. Over and over again. A lot of us with a chronic health condition are on a very tight budget. If I can help someone get some nice items without costing them, then I'll do it. If I can help someone with a chronic health condition have a little mindless fun and help them take their mind off the pain, then I'll do it.
I hate to lose a person over something so trivial, but I have to look at the big picture, that I may be helping someone else. I'll always support, educate, and advocate for those with a chronic pain condition. This is just another way to try and help give a little support. I don't have much to look forward to these days, and waiting on this Keurig to get here gave me something to look forward to and be excited about for a change. I hope that someone reading this will be able to feel the same kind of excitement!